A bad girl spotted
I always doubt on myself, always wondering if it is my fault whenever something happens.
Treat everyone fairly, the same, but will give more to those who I look important.
In the end, everyone fool me around.
I am sick of dramas, conflict, and stress. I always keep myself in a simple mode because I trust that simple is the only way and easier way to reach happiness. Feeling hate when all the bullshit rush towards me continuously day by day without ending.
People change for two reasons. First, change by their own, the bad character inside themselves expose. Secondly, maybe because of the environment, things and people they meet everyday.
Obviously I am the second one. People that changed change me.
I always thought I am the lucky one because I met my ‘blue face’ and we understand each other clearly more than other friend do inside our gang.
But you know, my friend cycle be like : STRANGER-FRIEND-GOOD FRIEND-STRANGER
It's so WEIRD. And I don't know why I am involve in this shit.
Friends for years but end up childishly.
I never want to contact daily or crossing the line. But for the others, I am like a plan for him more than a friend. Purposely, I did give more caring to him than others because he is my only bestie in Alor Setar which did the same to me. It hurts me a lot because I never want my efforts to be pay off and have other unnecessary thought of me.
How do you feel when you found out you were left behind in a group for many times?
Everyone knew there will be event held on exact day and feeling excited then discussing on group but you knew nothing and still asking where and when like a fool. HAHAHAHA okay. How am I going to manage my time well if I gotta do OT on that day? Never have someone think of my side.
So, how about CNY gathering without anyone inform you about date and time? You still have to make up time for them because they feel guilty and finally invite you by last minute. How am I going to manage my time well? I always thought it's on another day so I took unpaid leave and hang out with my colleague on the exact day of gathering. What's going on when everyone knew 7.30 pm gather but I knew nothing about it? Huh?
Perhaps it's my problem. Maybe I did anything wrong. Then I would probably leave rather than getting ignored by a bunch of friends.
Even if he don't want to make friend with me somemore, but is it also mean that whole bunch of friend I am going to lose too?
Now I knew which position I stand now. I am actually a PLAN not a friend. Slowly accept the fate.
This is just a great start for bad feelings demon inside me.
I fool my colleague for few days already and it's fun. My job is so dramatic and I think every job is the same. Good time pass quickly. I always thought I met nice people. HAHAHAHAHA
I never regret to fool them even company money didn't missing.
I told them manager stalk them and watch their every step through CCTV while system still haven't start operating and been blocked. They were afraid. I am happy.
I complain my colleague secretly because I help him punch card almost daily and I became a bad me from the day he made me feel irritating for helping him do OT twice a day and he's late and gone. But on the other side, I still give some caring to him so he will feel guilty?
They like drama so much. I can afford myself to be a good actor.
Yesterday, a small amount of money was missing. I don't know I should handling it by emotionally or rationally. I doubt on everyone and feeling so irritating. Why I have to face this shit?
I will think out a way to go through it. I MUST. No matter what tricks I use, I will help myself go through this.
One more thing, I beg everyone UNFOLLOW ME, UNFRIEND ME OR BLOCK ME ON SOCIAL MEDIA.
Yes I am begging. Please do it ASAP. It's my fault to be so famous for past few years on social media, sorry for that. Now I just want a peaceful life, stop using me to do topics la DUDE. I can't stop people mouth just like you can't stop me from saying something incorrectly. So, you let me go, I let you go. Win Win. If I found out someone cross my line by saying something too over, I will make sure you PAY FOR WHAT YOU DONE to me, feel the same as me.
PEACE.
Treat everyone fairly, the same, but will give more to those who I look important.
In the end, everyone fool me around.
I am sick of dramas, conflict, and stress. I always keep myself in a simple mode because I trust that simple is the only way and easier way to reach happiness. Feeling hate when all the bullshit rush towards me continuously day by day without ending.
People change for two reasons. First, change by their own, the bad character inside themselves expose. Secondly, maybe because of the environment, things and people they meet everyday.
Obviously I am the second one. People that changed change me.
I always thought I am the lucky one because I met my ‘blue face’ and we understand each other clearly more than other friend do inside our gang.
But you know, my friend cycle be like : STRANGER-FRIEND-GOOD FRIEND-STRANGER
It's so WEIRD. And I don't know why I am involve in this shit.
Friends for years but end up childishly.
I never want to contact daily or crossing the line. But for the others, I am like a plan for him more than a friend. Purposely, I did give more caring to him than others because he is my only bestie in Alor Setar which did the same to me. It hurts me a lot because I never want my efforts to be pay off and have other unnecessary thought of me.
How do you feel when you found out you were left behind in a group for many times?
Everyone knew there will be event held on exact day and feeling excited then discussing on group but you knew nothing and still asking where and when like a fool. HAHAHAHA okay. How am I going to manage my time well if I gotta do OT on that day? Never have someone think of my side.
So, how about CNY gathering without anyone inform you about date and time? You still have to make up time for them because they feel guilty and finally invite you by last minute. How am I going to manage my time well? I always thought it's on another day so I took unpaid leave and hang out with my colleague on the exact day of gathering. What's going on when everyone knew 7.30 pm gather but I knew nothing about it? Huh?
Perhaps it's my problem. Maybe I did anything wrong. Then I would probably leave rather than getting ignored by a bunch of friends.
Even if he don't want to make friend with me somemore, but is it also mean that whole bunch of friend I am going to lose too?
Now I knew which position I stand now. I am actually a PLAN not a friend. Slowly accept the fate.
This is just a great start for bad feelings demon inside me.
I fool my colleague for few days already and it's fun. My job is so dramatic and I think every job is the same. Good time pass quickly. I always thought I met nice people. HAHAHAHAHA
I never regret to fool them even company money didn't missing.
I told them manager stalk them and watch their every step through CCTV while system still haven't start operating and been blocked. They were afraid. I am happy.
I complain my colleague secretly because I help him punch card almost daily and I became a bad me from the day he made me feel irritating for helping him do OT twice a day and he's late and gone. But on the other side, I still give some caring to him so he will feel guilty?
They like drama so much. I can afford myself to be a good actor.
Yesterday, a small amount of money was missing. I don't know I should handling it by emotionally or rationally. I doubt on everyone and feeling so irritating. Why I have to face this shit?
I will think out a way to go through it. I MUST. No matter what tricks I use, I will help myself go through this.
One more thing, I beg everyone UNFOLLOW ME, UNFRIEND ME OR BLOCK ME ON SOCIAL MEDIA.
Yes I am begging. Please do it ASAP. It's my fault to be so famous for past few years on social media, sorry for that. Now I just want a peaceful life, stop using me to do topics la DUDE. I can't stop people mouth just like you can't stop me from saying something incorrectly. So, you let me go, I let you go. Win Win. If I found out someone cross my line by saying something too over, I will make sure you PAY FOR WHAT YOU DONE to me, feel the same as me.
PEACE.
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