Tell you more about me , myself and I
I don't know if anyone are like me.
I have three different identity in my life, I have different attitude facing people, I am a different me in different situation.
Why three identity?? Because I play different role based on locations or places.
1. I AM A NERDIn school, I play my role as a nerd. I don't like smiling much because waking up on 6am every morning is exhausted and extremely tired. I'm not an easy-going person. School is a forever boring place and I'm using up my entire school life for shitting and eating. I will never trouble trouble till trouble trouble me as I don't think I can communicate well with others with my tired look. So if any schoolmate or teacher trying pass some tasks for me, definitely my face will automatically show up ' I am not willing to do ' or ' I am not happy with it '. But I less do that face because volunteers in school is so many, that type of 'gila pangkat' person is everywhere. I don't know why. And I have no any best friend who can talk without worries in school. Bitch is everywhere. I'm lucky because I'm in Omega class, even we are not in a big group, but we are making friend by heart not by words. I will missing the time we gather around behind the class with five people sitting on the same row on in a circle just to use our free time for gossiping and talking so the time will pass quick.
And so this is how I look in school with my nerd look and round spectacles.
These pictures are all took by last year. I less selfie in school because I'm ugly. Imagine going to school with a messy look and tiring face. You still look untidy even tough you tie up your hair because wash and blow your hair takes 15 minutes above and you don't have time for that. Neither waking up earlier 10 minutes nor asking mum to drive faster would not be a good idea because I still have sissy need to attend her school which our home to our school is totally a two different routes. And our formal wear is not really in a formal way because you're in a Malay school and so many formal wear that can be wear and nice looking were banned.
2. I AM A WORM
I am a lazy worm in home. 舒服是给死人和猫。(Comfy is for the dead one and cat.) I usually taking a long nap after back from school because I wake up too early but then I got insomnia at night so I sleep late again about 1.00 am or 2.00 am. I can't change this lifestyle because it is already an unchangeable habit. My other family members also used to this kind of life, we are panda family with our serious eyebags and dark eye circles. I have a lot of pets nearby my home. Not in my home because mummy not allow me to feed them. But I will secretly let my cat enter home when parents are not at home. Why cat but not dog? Stray dogs have too many fleas and lice on their body, I'm afraid whole my house is full of fleas if I let them in my home. I don't really spend so much time on social and I almost forget the feeling texting with someone else. Most of my time spending with dramas, bed and my pet. I have no one dating with so I like to sleep when I'm boring or looking up for new updates from 谷啊莫 (youtuber) to spend my time. I say I'm a worm because I never do housework ( ._. ) . My room is as messy as my life.
I'm fun to be around when I am with my family. I like to do weird things and unexpected action so my parents or sissy will laugh and asking me try to do be more girlish. I like home that full with laughter. I am not sure if these pictures below could truly express how I am when I'm with my homie. You need more imagination for that.
3. I AM A BUTTERFLY
I love outing with my squad or making new friend because my life is 'derai' (dry). I will dress myself according to my mood and put something nicer than usual on whole of my body because outing seems an excited things to do for a nerd. If outing with squad, I will use hours for thinking which outfit should I wear because I want to look different with usual but at last will end up wearing plain tee and short pants because my friend won't used to see me wear something nice. T.T I always dreaming to escape from this small city where I live for 19 years because I never left here for a long period. Maybe this day will come someday or maybe not. So outing could be fun for me, even tough just in Alor Setar area, even just out for craving some food or coffee, I can feel and breath in some fresh new air and imagine I'm going to a far place from home. Just like I am experiencing morphostasis, from a caterpillar morphs into a butterfly. I can feel wings grow on my back. Somemore, I smile more and my tired face in school disappear. I like to take many photographs when outing so I can keep for memories and throwback on social apps when I'm bored.
Throwback to hiking day at Taman Negara Pulau Pinang.
A nice experience sitting tricycle with buddy.
Found some nice place for photoshoot in hometown.
The coffee break when meeting with my partner.
Unforgettable beautiful night view at Subang.
Snap this at Oriental Village.
My favourite squad. Thanks for the long term friendship.
Blogging always let me forget about time.
It's 3.07 am now, goodnight bloggie.
I have three different identity in my life, I have different attitude facing people, I am a different me in different situation.
Why three identity?? Because I play different role based on locations or places.
1. I AM A NERDIn school, I play my role as a nerd. I don't like smiling much because waking up on 6am every morning is exhausted and extremely tired. I'm not an easy-going person. School is a forever boring place and I'm using up my entire school life for shitting and eating. I will never trouble trouble till trouble trouble me as I don't think I can communicate well with others with my tired look. So if any schoolmate or teacher trying pass some tasks for me, definitely my face will automatically show up ' I am not willing to do ' or ' I am not happy with it '. But I less do that face because volunteers in school is so many, that type of 'gila pangkat' person is everywhere. I don't know why. And I have no any best friend who can talk without worries in school. Bitch is everywhere. I'm lucky because I'm in Omega class, even we are not in a big group, but we are making friend by heart not by words. I will missing the time we gather around behind the class with five people sitting on the same row on in a circle just to use our free time for gossiping and talking so the time will pass quick.
2. I AM A WORM
I am a lazy worm in home. 舒服是给死人和猫。(Comfy is for the dead one and cat.) I usually taking a long nap after back from school because I wake up too early but then I got insomnia at night so I sleep late again about 1.00 am or 2.00 am. I can't change this lifestyle because it is already an unchangeable habit. My other family members also used to this kind of life, we are panda family with our serious eyebags and dark eye circles. I have a lot of pets nearby my home. Not in my home because mummy not allow me to feed them. But I will secretly let my cat enter home when parents are not at home. Why cat but not dog? Stray dogs have too many fleas and lice on their body, I'm afraid whole my house is full of fleas if I let them in my home. I don't really spend so much time on social and I almost forget the feeling texting with someone else. Most of my time spending with dramas, bed and my pet. I have no one dating with so I like to sleep when I'm boring or looking up for new updates from 谷啊莫 (youtuber) to spend my time. I say I'm a worm because I never do housework ( ._. ) . My room is as messy as my life.
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| I wonder why I rely on a cat more than a human. |
3. I AM A BUTTERFLY
I love outing with my squad or making new friend because my life is 'derai' (dry). I will dress myself according to my mood and put something nicer than usual on whole of my body because outing seems an excited things to do for a nerd. If outing with squad, I will use hours for thinking which outfit should I wear because I want to look different with usual but at last will end up wearing plain tee and short pants because my friend won't used to see me wear something nice. T.T I always dreaming to escape from this small city where I live for 19 years because I never left here for a long period. Maybe this day will come someday or maybe not. So outing could be fun for me, even tough just in Alor Setar area, even just out for craving some food or coffee, I can feel and breath in some fresh new air and imagine I'm going to a far place from home. Just like I am experiencing morphostasis, from a caterpillar morphs into a butterfly. I can feel wings grow on my back. Somemore, I smile more and my tired face in school disappear. I like to take many photographs when outing so I can keep for memories and throwback on social apps when I'm bored.
Blogging always let me forget about time.
It's 3.07 am now, goodnight bloggie.
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