如何删除旧回忆

-
回忆就像生长在肚子里驱不走的蛔虫

 若一下子强逼自己删除所有回忆的证据

 在心底念念不忘也只会逼着自己去遗憾

 倒不如放着搁着 或许哪天看了就不痛不痒了

 要不然就给自己找个删除回忆的借口

 就像我现在每当在我的部落格更新一篇文章就会有一张旧文章被randomly选来删除

 我的部落格只有460个帖子 直到我不想再删任何东西的那天

 今天删掉的是一个form 2时写的帖子

 第一次学会ponteng的日子

 第一次和隔壁班的小学好朋友和她的闺蜜玩后来她的闺蜜成为我的闺蜜

 第一次有讨厌的老师

 很多第一次的一个人过 也很多很幼稚的第一次

 这就是那时候所hashtag的schoolday

 如果我的人生剧场可以用小时代来规划 那么我永远停留在第一部那就是：幼稚时代

 我现在的思维就是每老一年我都会觉得去年的自己很幼稚 今年的我还okay

 这种思维一直不停循环 18岁的时候觉得自己很okay17岁幼稚爆表

 19岁的时候觉得自己很okay18岁的自己到底在做些什么

 对，就是这种特么循环状态 我人生的第二部小时代不懂何时才会有续集

 哪一天我才会真正觉得自己很稳了不再是okay和幼稚

 这个6月没什么可以记录 大概就是assignment又来折磨了

 然后争取到了当家教的机会 吉他老师的机会

 我收费很便宜 因为学历不是很高也没有什么经验

 但我还是始终相信内句话 内句话就是我在教别人的时候自己也在学习

 我现在最大的问题就是不能和我的学生混熟让他不那么打瞌睡

 还有多学习弹多一些新歌不然就快要被超越然后失业了

 爸爸年迈 很多工作也没有康头了 加上everyday is a loanly day

 大姐二姐就算做工了要还很多贷款 妈妈一直在家嚷没有家用

 而我就开始找很多兼职来做 这个sem3已经没有补习了

 其实在别人眼里我很有钱 但其实我一直装着虚壳的秘密

 还记得刚转去kolej读form6不久 我就和班上的两个女生一直讲心事

 第二个原因是这个年纪的朋友还是要先试探能不能掏心掏肺的参

 HQ：“我还以为你很有钱 看你拍的每一张照片”
























我是很爱拍照没有错 照骗哪个女生不喜欢拍

 只不过如果你还是要觉得我很富有你可以仔细的stalk一下我

 我每一张照片从脚到上从头到下没有一个是名牌之物 有时候更是全身上下都淘宝

 我何尝不是需要一个手表 一个出门能让我当百宝袋的包包

 我何尝不是需要一个耐用实用且可以衬托我的东西

 还记得三月muet考试 那个老师们都一直交代speaking几秒几秒几分钟的

 那时候实在是就算有钱也花不下去 跑去借手表要看看人家脸色 然后又有疑心病怕会弄坏

 今年sem2考试也是这样 还记得刚到学校忘记跟妹妹借手表 又担心班上没闹钟

 因为连续两次在一个月里面坏了两个 简直坑班费 班费又收那么多

 每次急到脑出火的时候 胆子就是大 跑去跟junior借 幸好肯借我

 但事后心情平复之后 又是一脸尴尬懵逼的找人还

 不过这些不算什么 挨了几下就会过去 想把储蓄花在更值得的地方

 或许有一天家里遇到困难了我会往爸妈钱包塞钱

 或许大姐在subang突然有急事了 我也可以买临时飞机票飞过去

 或许二姐有天再也不舍得给自己买些什么了我可以帮一点

 或许很多或许 所以我都不敢花钱 除非是遇到我真心喜欢真心想要做的事情

 因为我怕哪一天 有个需要 没人愿意帮我





每次下的标题都会跟文章内容离题（ 。—— 。）

评论

发表评论

此博客中的热门博文

Phu Quoc 4 days 3 nights Itinerary - RM936.60

-
图片
🏨 Accomodation 9 Station Hostel Phu Quoc 3 nights  ( book through Agoda) Private room with one double bed and private bathroom = RM312.57/2= RM156.30 Transport ✈ Flight : PEN to KUL (return ticket) = RM118 KUL to PQC (return ticket + 1 meal) = RM251 We've booked our flight using BigPay when Air Asia was doing promotion. We've booked flight meals together because BigPay got give discount for meals and luggage. Somemore, I can collect points to redeem free flight tickets. BigPay is now currently collaborate with Agoda so you can use your points to deduct as credit or earn points through booking stay. BigPay card is a prepaid card so you don't have to worry you will overuse your money. Another benefit is when I go to Phu Quoc, BigPay don't need to activate for international use at any ATM machines. Big Pay offered me a better currency than local currency shop. Click this for further information about BigPay. 🚕 Taxi/ Grabtaxi:  143, 500 VND (RM26.12, rat...
阅读全文

Blue Lagoon in Alor Setar

-
图片
Alor Setar is my hometown that known as the rice bowl of Malaysia. This a town where people can feel comfort and relax because we don't have traffic jam problem here. Basically, resident in Alor Setar will mostly spend most of time inside our own house because this town lacked of entertainment like nightlife, cinemas, park and so on. Weeks ago, Facebook posts keep on updating a new check in place in Alor Setar which is Blue Lagoon. So my sister, Kc and I decided to look for it yesterday and I'm still wondering what make this place so special and crowded with people and cars.  Reminder: You have to pass through a narrow road between river and paddy field to reach blue lagoon. Suggest not to drive your big car come to this place because you will find it's hard to make a turn back and difficult to find parking.  I captured this while we stuck in the main entrance (the narrow road that I mention just now). That Saga showed us who were stuck inside there is actually anot...
阅读全文

How BigPay works?

-
图片
I signed up BigPay card last month and found it really useful if you always go to travel or you frequently shopping online. This year I travel to 3 countries and it helps me to save my time and money. Since many people shared it on Facebook so I decided to try it for two months first then only recommend it to my family or friends if it is useful. So, WHAT is BigPay and HOW it works ? BigPay is a prepaid card that currently collaborate with AirAsia, you can collect big points faster using it because it works like a debit card and you can use it not only for booking a flight. You can use your BigPay card at over 35.9 million Mastercard merchants worldwide. This gives you the convenience of using the card anywhere in the world and topping up anytime right on the app . You don't have to activate overseas ATM usage first when you go abroad. BENEFITS of  BigPay 1.Processing fees are excluded when you use BigPay to make payment for your flight. 2.You can easily purchase c...
阅读全文